So .. like. Lol. I’m sorry. I don’t even know how to start this off. Hi, friends? It’s been a while. Nice to be back. We’re in the middle of a pandemic?
You don’t know how badly I wish that was a joke. I’ve been wrestling with myself in my head that I should be using all this time to write. Now that we’re all just stuck at home, there isn’t a better time to be productive, right?
Here’s my thing. My brain wants to work, but my heart keeps telling me, Sorry but no. You don’t have to. Why should you? The world is falling apart right now. It’d take an enormous amount of strength for you to sit down and blog and try to be positive and write about … What is it? Lyrics?! When people are dying. Out there in the world.
It would take an enormous amount of strength for doctors and nurses and medical professionals to be going into work even though they are afraid and being apart from their families because they know what they need to do is save lives. It would take an enormous amount of strength for grocery store workers to paint anything other than a worried look on their faces, but they’ll show up to work anyway because they have to. It would take an enormous amount of strength for people to take care of their elderly loved ones. It would take an enormous amount of strength for anyone to get out of bed when the world is like this and keep going.
Yet, we do, and we’re here, and I just think if you’re reading this, you should take a moment to acknowledge that it takes something special in you to choose to keep going when the world is falling apart. So recognize that in yourself today. Be safe and be smart. Keep taking care of yourself.
Staying at Home
I’m from Southern California, where we’re all on a Stay at Home order right now. It means working from home if you can work from home. It means going to school online. It means staying indoors unless you need to go to the pharmacy, the grocery store, the bank, or to take your pet to the vet. That’s basically, how I’ve lived my life for the past year and a half.
While this virus has affected the world in devastating ways physically, financially, everything – I’m also seeing just a lot of normal, everyday people simply struggling with the idea of staying home all day long. Which is completely understandable. Cabin fever is a thing, and it doesn’t help at all that the American mindset is that you have to be productive and stay working in order to feel like you’ve accomplished something in yourself … That’s so lame. Let’s not prove our self-worth by doing that. You are more than that. You are okay.
I’ve read that a lot of people are worried about losing themselves in bad thoughts without having the normalcy of their regular lives. Without going to school. Without going to work. Without having things to work for or look forward to. Without being with your friends. Without being with people you love. Indoors all day. By yourself? It’s hard to handle yourself sometimes. Oh my god. No one has to tell me that twice. This is scary for a lot of reasons, but you know what – It isn’t impossible to deal with.
Here are a few ways that I cope with being at home for long periods of time:
- Don’t turn your days into a never-ending weekend.
- Make it feel like you’re still going outside.
- Find a hobby.
- Read a book.
- Watch a new show or movie that you haven’t already watched!
- Eat fruits. Stay healthy! Stay your strongest.
- Eat candy! Eat chocolate! Don’t deprive yourself.
- Take naps if you want to. Stay awake if you don’t.
- Listen to music by an artist you’ve never heard before.
- Start learning an instrument.
- Write poetry.
- Write and mail letters to someone just for kicks.
- You don’t have to listen to your mind all the time.
- Look at the sky.
- Watch the sunset.
I mean, this list could go on forever. It’s literally just about a balance. Take five days to lounge in your pajamas and never do your hair. I do that a lot, but when you start to feel sluggish and feel like you’re just a ball of nothing and you don’t feel good, then do your makeup. Or get dressed as if you were leaving. Or eat whatever you feel like. Or eat healthy things. It’s the illusion of feeling like you’re setting yourself up to do something. I know that this is all just so contradictory, but it’s only because what I think it’s about is just feeding your soul in the moment.
What do you need to do in the moment to feel okay? Take care of yourself like that because you need the love too. Stay busy. Get lazy. Discover something to care about, even if it’s temporary, and just find a balance. It’s okay if it takes a while to figure that out. The way it looks right now, we’ve all got some downtime at home.
The most heartfelt shout out to all the medical professionals, caretakers, and teachers who are out there saving society or keeping society going. You are selfless in a way I never could have been and we owe you way more than we say we do.
I wish I had more to say but I truly don’t. I know there’s an end to all this somewhere, but it’s just hard to feel hopeful because everything is so uncertain. I have never seen Los Angeles more dead or the streets more empty. I’m not finding hope in our world leaders or in the barbaric and selfish ways that people have begun to treat each other, but I am finding hope in strangers reaching out to each other and small businesses supporting each other’s missions during this crisis and artists that are continuing to make music because you know, you can cancel and postpone our shows and concerts but you can’t take away the act of making and releasing songs.
I said earlier I can’t possibly write about music when everything is falling apart like this, but if we’re being honest here, I really don’t know what else to do.
So, here are the songs that have been holding me over. They are just feel good in the moment songs. They are dance to these while you’re stuck in your house songs, and they are find the light and find your own hope and start by listening here songs:
Heartbreak Weather – Niall Horan
It can be so lonely in this city,
but it feels different when you’re with me.
Daphne Blue – The Band Camino
I see shades of you when I don’t want to.
Sleeping In – All Time Low
Haven’t left your place in days.
Daydream – The Aces
I would rather be at home with you right now.
Hard Times – Paramore
All that I want
is to wake up fine.
Tell me that I’m alright,
that I ain’t gonna die.
Piece of Your Heart – Mayday Parade
Give me your misery.
All of it, give it to me.
I can hold on to it for you.
It’s not a problem.
Where Did The Party Go – Fall Out Boy
Silent film stars stuck in talking cinema light
So let’s fade away together one dream at a time
Even My Dad Does Sometimes – Ed Sheeran
It’s alright to cry.
For the First Time – The Script
Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard.
Go Father In Lightness – Gang of Youths
I stare at the freeway inveterately free.
Go farther in hope.
Go farther in lightness.
Go Farther In Lightness – Gang of Youths 2018